On the road again.....

Things here are similar to madness. Alot of things I can't describe in this blog. Yarr.

Work is the same as always. Dramatic people reign supreme. I'm to cool for all that.

I've been semi social. I'm a little to attached to some of my coworkers. And I need to stop that.

I love this pic..taken last Friday. Haha. Its amazing what happens when you start in on a bottle of wine.

So basically, come July I'm gonna be a very busy girl. I got accepted into the program I wanted at animationmentor. So I'll be having a very intense year and a half of learning character animation. Hopefully if I apply myself really hard I will get the job I want in the end. But its about time I stopped talking about it and did. And I am. Hurray! Now to get loans and software and hardware to do it. Yikes. Hahah anyone want to give me a copy of Maya 7? lol

Oh Kelly, congrats on graduating. It IS very strange to be done with school, It was very odd for a while. Granted my post graduation 3-4 months was spent in bed in a cast but still.....its odd. Good luck. I'm sure you'll find a good job. Wish I could be at your graduation.....but i'm sure some day we'll eventually meet up right? 

on the road to no where

Wow, so whats been up? Everything and nothing I suppose.

I went to Austin last weekend with some of my good friends..had a good time..had one to many 4-horseman shots and yea, spent the night with my head in the garbage pail. Very painful. (sushi and jager is no fun when it comes back up) All in all a good trip. Nice town, quite beautiful really, and it was nice to get away. Here's a link to pics...

http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/lsimono/album?.dir=63c0&.src=ph&store=&prodid=&.done=http%3a//photos.yahoo.com/ph//my_photos

How can everything be moving so fast and yet progress is at a snails pace? And how can you care so much about some people but feel so far away from them at the same time? We all build to many walls.

So anyway, I should be showing Strike end of next month at the HDS Spring Classic..just to qualify him for regionals in training level. No biggy really. After that, I'm putting him up for sale. Yea, I said it. As hard as it is for me, the truth of the matter is that it has to be done. Life isn't fair. and no one ever said it was.

Well fcuk again.

I've been feeling pretty dreadful lately.

I had a horrid night at work last night. Fucking RUDE people. Everything went all wrong at once. The kitchen fucked up my apps. Then my table made some wild accusastions of me and got up stormed out and left. And usually I am one of the employees that never has a problem. I went into the office and I was literally shaking and I looked at my boss and was like I CANT HANDLE THESE PEOPLE. haha. I think I was exhausted from pulling that 11+ hour shift on Tues. And then I get there yesterday..well the girl next to me flaked leaving all her tables (for lucky me) and I had mine, and hers and then the sections changed so I had more and she fucked up the tickets and grrr. YEa. lovely time. By the time those rude fucks got around I just couldn't take anymore. And I was supposed to be first out last night. Was I? NO. At fucking 10 the hostess sits me a 9 top then hands me my cutslip. I said "fuck you, don't talk to me ANYMORE TONIGHT". I should have been off by 9. Yea. Fuck. I got off at 12 instead.

Yea. I've been trying to figure out so much lately. And I feel so drained. And empty. And yea. So much shit I can't even write down you know?

Just fuck everything. Luckily there are a couple of people that can usually make me feel better despite the shittiness of the day.

Augh. I hate my job. And I hate here. But if I ran where is there to go?

fcuk

Augh. I never know how to feel. My mom tells me to never trust anyone. Everyone, even your friends will screw you. And for the most part that has proven true. everyone I've ever trusted to take care of me has only ever hurt me. And backstabbed me. Its so hard to trust. But if I never trust anyone, my life will surely be lonely. And I would  like to believe some people are genuine in their intent. It would see that everyone has alterior motives. Am I the only one never seeking anything at the expense of a friend?

it fills me full of sorrow no less. i am one of those rare people that you can honestly trust to always do the right thing. I do not believe in stabbing my friends in the back. And I do not believe in the sentiment told my face "there are no friends in business". you know my heart is better than what money can bring. i'm sorry. to be cold and uncaring towards others is not something i want to feel. but more and more, it would seem thats the way of the world.

it makes me so sad. i think perhaps my head is to far the clouds eh? I'm to fucking idealistic. And it would seem that perhaps I'm the only person on earth that feels this way.

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See you on the flip side nigga...

Yea.....this weekend was aight.

Friday I hung at Lamar all afternoon, hit the mall, caught Brokeback Mountain (it was excellent) and hit up Blockbuster. Oh yea!! I snagged War of the Worlds, Batman Begins and Kingdom of Heaven. I think I want to go back and get Particles of Truth and MAYBE Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. I'm such a movie nerd I swear it. Not much else to do around here though.

Saturday I preformed lots of manual labor and my back is KILLING me. I have officially done something to my lower back on the left side and yea. Ow. THen I closed at work..we all got off around 12 something. Well, we were gonna do something like go to Handlebar but we ended up hanging out in the fuckin Chilis parking lot until 2am. CHILIHEAD FOR LIFE! haha. I was telling stories and yea, everyone was doubled in pain from laughter. It was great. This one chick was laughing so hard it was cracking ME up. Hahahah...and she told me I should go to Comedy TX. hahah. I wish I could dude! And I was hoarse this morning! Anyone that knows me knows how i tell stories. I'm animated! haha. Love it!

Sunday we had a little Superbowl get together and yea, the super bowl sucked cock. The Stones SUCKED. I'm sorry but they did. Then L-word came on and yea. OMFG. HOT HOT HOT. And what the HELL!! Shane cheated on Carmen auuuuuuuugh that is so awful. I could say so much about L-word this week, but those who saw it know what I'm saying. It was mmmm so good. But Dana havin cancer is SAD! Her character is supposed to die this season and ya, thats gonna be a really sad episode and we're gonna need ALOT of beer! Ha, so then it was just me and Pat and we decided to watch porn. Actually a midget porn. And the midget was so dirty it was hilarious. She rode in on a tricycle. hilarious! THen this bitch got fucked in the ass and pussy at the same time and we were seriously cracking up. I'll admit, I love filthy nasty porn. Not that I get off to it, I just find it wildly amusing. Maybe I am just a sick fuck.

Augh nothing but work work work this week. I hate it when I'm not there really..all my coworkers keep me sane and we have a good time together. We have this gay GSS survery on the reciepts that customers fill out online. One lady wrote this HUGE long paragraph criticizing basically every move we make..and it said "It would seem that the employees are to playful with one another" I was like BITCH get a LIFE. At least we don't hate each other. Some people I swear it.

So our barn is about 50% done...its looking damn good and its going to be a real classy dig. We should be boarding some horses here in the near months. Its going to be so nice. I thought it was nice before the hurricane but its about 10x so now.

Well, I got to figure out what I'm gonna do. I suppose if nothing comes of this job at Lamar, then I'm going to proceed with my plans to move and go back to school. I feel so depressed and I dont know why. I just need to run so far away and figure things out before I ever think of coming back.